Growing up!!

Growing up amongst 4 more children is fun and tough at the same time. Each child has to undergo the "comparison"problem - each one is expected to be the best - and non-stop comparisons as to how good the other one is all that would greet you at every turn!

My elder sister - is a Saraswathi in person - nothing is difficult for her - no mathematics sum is too difficult - she does not need a teacher or a mentor or anybody - she grew up herself - all by herself - literally!! Everyone was in awe of her knowledge but somehow no one in particular was fond of her - may be because of her "buddhi". I am sure now, that everyone was in a way jealous of her - how can a small kid be so confident of herself? how can she be so independent? how can she be knowing everything without being told?? how can she be a leader without being told to lead??

She used to assemble all 4 of us with no difficulty at all - as a matter of fact, we 4 were only too happy to oblige her for no particular reason. We would simply obey her; do what was told; - a natural leader she is!

I followed her in school and in each class I had to put up with each and every teacher's remarks - "you are sister of so and so - hence, better behave yourself and be the topper in each subject"..somehow 100 out of 100 in mathematics eluded me always - I was always in the range of 95 to 98 out of 100. This was supposed to be too bad and each maths teacher made it a point to make me aware that I have no brains for mathematics!! All because, my sister could get 100% in each and every test, exam, call it whatever.